Crazy stuff

[saviourseph]

So, I went to the doctor's on Wednesday, and mentioned the whole antipsychotics not working, need new brain thing, expecting him to increase my dosage/try something new and send me on my merry way, like he has in the past. But no... now he's decided that my mental condition is beyond his help, and I need to make an appointment with my (ever-elusive) CPN/keyworker to get it seen to. Which will take fuck-knows how long.

So yeah... apparently losing one's grip on reality isn't seen as particularly urgent. Nice to know. 

Self-diagnosis is a fool's game, but my bipolar disorder is seeming more and more like schizoaffective disorder these days - the psychosis is setting in even when I'm not manic. Here's hoping not though.

Comments

[rauduskoivu.livejournal.com]

"Beyond his help" huh. I mean, nice that he doesn't want to try anything he knows nothing about, in case it fucks you up, but you know... a referral to someone who could IMMEDIATELY help you would be nice, yes? >_> This seems like some bullshit. I'm really sorry to hear the meds aren't working. :( :( :(

[paulnolan.livejournal.com]

I'm mostly upset because I thought I'd found the perfect antipsychotic... it was working and there were no nasty side-effects (well, it makes me drowsy, but I just take it at bed time and it means the side-effects are actually beneficial). Now I'll probably start on the fun for all the family ride of experimenting with new ones and the horrors they bring.