Crazy stuff

So, I went to the doctor's on Wednesday, and mentioned the whole antipsychotics not working, need new brain thing, expecting him to increase my dosage/try something new and send me on my merry way, like he has in the past. But no... now he's decided that my mental condition is beyond his help, and I need to make an appointment with my (ever-elusive) CPN/keyworker to get it seen to. Which will take fuck-knows how long.

So yeah... apparently losing one's grip on reality isn't seen as particularly urgent. Nice to know. 

Self-diagnosis is a fool's game, but my bipolar disorder is seeming more and more like schizoaffective disorder these days - the psychosis is setting in even when I'm not manic. Here's hoping not though.